Muse & Meander

Shaping a Genesis week from the chaos of my life

So, is this Jessi’s story?

The short answer is no.

According to Statistics Canada, nearly 4000 people a year die by suicide in Canada.  The rate is even higher in the USA, according to Save.  Males are three times more likely than females to die by suicide, and the most affected group is the 15-24 year range.

But, for each person who succeeds, dozens are left behind as the survivors. Brothers, sisters, parents, extended family and friends must all deal with the aftermath of this tragedy. This is no easy process. Grief is always difficult, but grief because of suicide is  messy and complicated. We seek to understand, we strive to move forward. The question we ask most often is why?  Sometimes there is no answer, and sometimes we understand what went wrong but we want it to be different.

This is not Jessi’s story. However, because I loved him so much I decided Quinn, the suicide victim, would be a skateboarder like Jessi was.  It’s my tribute to a nephew that I adored.

Griptape is Hannah’s story. Hannah is the sister left behind, the one who has to learn if she can survive without her older brother.  She has questions. Lots of questions.  Griptape explores many of the emotions that people may feel when someone dies by suicide.  It’s never easy when someone dies but how do we reconcile it when this person we love chooses to take their own life?

There are questions.  Why didn’t I know? How did I miss it? Could I have done anything? Should I have done anything? What was he thinking?  There are emotions that sneak up on me.  Sometimes I’m angry at him. Sometimes I laugh at something I remember him doing.

Most of the time?  I just miss him.

In a world where suicide rates continue to rise, Griptape is for people trying to make sense of it all.

8 comments on “So, is this Jessi’s story?

  1. Nancy Rue
    August 24, 2013

    I think you are an amazing woman and a brave one. I want to see Hannah’s story in the hands of every young person who struggles with any kind of loss — or is trying to help someone who is — which includes just about everybody. Nancy Rue

    • Crystal Thieringer
      August 24, 2013

      Thank you my friend. Your support in this project has been invaluable, and I love you more than I can say.

  2. Kathryn Svendsen
    August 26, 2013

    Crystal, this is going to be an amazing book. Do you have a button for followers other than the email one?


    • Crystal Thieringer
      August 26, 2013

      not yet…but if I figure out how to do it, I’ll add it. Like you, I’m finding the blogging thing to be a whole new learning curve.

  3. Andrea
    August 30, 2013

    Can’t wait to read it!

  4. Cindy
    September 1, 2013

    Crystal, WOW! This is going to be an amazing book! You have a gift for writing and a talent for sharing your heart! I cannot wait to read it…finish it, finish it 🙂

    • Crystal Thieringer
      September 1, 2013

      oh, the book is finished, Cindy. I have the whole get-it-published part to do now. Thanks so much for your support. It means a lot to me!

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